So following a few amazing epiphanies and a
couple of synchronistic “sheetuations” (said with a very Brooklyn accent), I decided I had to write, so I walked around the house to see, who was out and
about…yup, at work and sleeping.. whoo hoo the house was completely mine… whut??..
ya mean I could pretend.. feel ‘as if’, behave exactly how I would if I was
already home (my home, my space)… I know my rescue somewhere is on his journey
towards me, it is as it’s supposed to be, I can act as if....
I ‘got giddy’, I jogged into my room and dropped
trough, grabbing all my num num body products and my Ipad for music…. I danced
my way to the bathroom, as I waited for the water to heat up, listening to zz
ward’s move like you stole it, I was dancing my ass off, I was just me, spirit,
limitedless, and the thing is I’ve always been a great dancer.. I feel music… always
have, stems from being home as a child, a latchkey kid, listening to my dad’s
massive record collection … and was it ever eclectic, thank you daddy. I danced ballet and auditioned for the
American Ballet Corp at Lincoln Center, but was told, I didn’t have the right
instep for long hours en’ pointe. Heartbroken
<oh yea I was> I fancied myself the
reincarnation of Anna Pavlova, and read everything I could about her.
Then the fire was rekindled and of course I succumbed
to the primal pull of that particular alignment of divine and danced again, in
any way I could... club scene mid 80’s in the NYC that’s all I’m sayin,
Anyway, today I danced in the bathroom waiting for the shower to heat up, and I danced for me, and there is a large oval mirror over the sink…the steam started rising <from the shower…from the shower> and I smiled at me… realizing that it indeed is ME, that forever has my back. It is so freaking true, “And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music.”― Friedrich Nietzsche…
There’s a reason for that .. they cannot hear
it.. LOL so they are seeing us making all these moves they don’t understand. Ahhhhl…. To them it may seem odd and make no
sense.
And I danced for the ‘joy’ in the now, really dancing
with/ in and feeling in sync with the light… my muscles were loosened and some of
the pain released.. yay.. it was beautiful, divine, natural medicine, and I’m
grateful I ‘get it’ now. Be in the
moment, just be… feel it, yup no matter what it feels like, don’t run from it…
it’s your life, and it’s a divine expression of you. Fall back in the unknowing, release those
fears… the soul trembles with the ecstasy of ‘what the hell is THAT?’ KUNDALINI
energy, yup… ohhhh…
------------------> I feel Kundalini RISING!!!!
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